Saturday, May 20, 2006
First week complete
Wow, prayer is an intense course. I believe that the class is no longer that, rather it is an intentional community. We have witnessed people healing in their relationships with God people in their lives. It is completely awesome and emotionally taxing.
I find that I am attempting to balance between holding a sacred space, introspecting on my thoughts and feelings that occur when others in my community are speaking, and not having good timing for when to speak in my community. What I end up doing is not speaking until the peoples' energies lower and I can make some measure of the void and speak for a moment. I also find myself apologizing for talking. I am apologizing for offering my experience. I do not want to stop people from having their own experiences and struggles. I do not want to rescue or get in the way of their own thing with God. Sometimes I believe that I have some minute part of the truth and am very hesitant to offer this bit. The hesitancy is that even if it is true that I have truly experienced some minute part of the truth, who is to say that my putting words to that experience even represents that experience anymore. Language through one's psychological filters and all. I suppose this is why dreams are so important because there is less of one's personal psychology (ego) in action and more of unmitigated communication from God.
Paul
I find that I am attempting to balance between holding a sacred space, introspecting on my thoughts and feelings that occur when others in my community are speaking, and not having good timing for when to speak in my community. What I end up doing is not speaking until the peoples' energies lower and I can make some measure of the void and speak for a moment. I also find myself apologizing for talking. I am apologizing for offering my experience. I do not want to stop people from having their own experiences and struggles. I do not want to rescue or get in the way of their own thing with God. Sometimes I believe that I have some minute part of the truth and am very hesitant to offer this bit. The hesitancy is that even if it is true that I have truly experienced some minute part of the truth, who is to say that my putting words to that experience even represents that experience anymore. Language through one's psychological filters and all. I suppose this is why dreams are so important because there is less of one's personal psychology (ego) in action and more of unmitigated communication from God.
Paul
# posted by Cougar Shaman @ 11:21 AM 
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This is my theory:
If God speaks to us through dreams, then napping is praying. I don't remember my dreams very often, but I do hear God when She speaks through Britney.
If God speaks to us through dreams, then napping is praying. I don't remember my dreams very often, but I do hear God when She speaks through Britney.
I think that the only people in a class who should be allowed to share their personal experiences are those who feel apologetic about it. The folks who aren't apologetic about personal references talk too much about themselves, generally.
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